So it's your "experience" is that you are simply "special" (based on a wishful thinking) or is there anything else? I don't think so, as you yourself write it's just your own
belief: "mostly a negative position in the sense that I don't believe matter, as described by the laws of physics, can give a coherent explanation of the phenomenon of consciousness."
My belief is that you even don't want to understand it.
There are no "laws of physics" that have to be changed to make a computer that is as complex as a person's brain: it's just that our technology is inefficient: one human's brain has some 100 billion neurons, we have had a significant effort to simulate around 100 million times less:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/OpenWorm
The organic cells are simply extremely efficient in the tasks they are doing, compared to our technology.
But even that small order of magnitude of cells are enough to evolve a basic "self awareness": it's simply an evolutionary advantage for multicellular life forms not to treat their own parts of the body the same as the competition and the rest of the environment. Basically a need to treat distinctively "myself" "food" "a potential sex partner" and an "enemy" is built in in the complex life forms that move (i.e. all kinds of animals).
That "special feeling" of you "being special" that you are aware of is something that you share with most of the complex life, and it is not a surprise in any way.
My belief is that you even don't want to understand it.
There are no "laws of physics" that have to be changed to make a computer that is as complex as a person's brain: it's just that our technology is inefficient: one human's brain has some 100 billion neurons, we have had a significant effort to simulate around 100 million times less:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/OpenWorm
The organic cells are simply extremely efficient in the tasks they are doing, compared to our technology.
But even that small order of magnitude of cells are enough to evolve a basic "self awareness": it's simply an evolutionary advantage for multicellular life forms not to treat their own parts of the body the same as the competition and the rest of the environment. Basically a need to treat distinctively "myself" "food" "a potential sex partner" and an "enemy" is built in in the complex life forms that move (i.e. all kinds of animals).
That "special feeling" of you "being special" that you are aware of is something that you share with most of the complex life, and it is not a surprise in any way.