Interesting read. It sounds like you lack a "mission" that your startup job provided, and just any old arbitrary mission can't replace it.
My advice would be to figure out what you want out of life: wife, kids, where would you live, what would you do, etc. And I don't mean look fir a new job I mean what do you want to dedicate your life to. Maybe religion, maybe service work, maybe cocaine and hookers. It's up to you.
Then, figure out a plan on what you need to do to achieve it.
You seem to believe that the point of working is the work itself, but the reality is that the point of working is to get money so you can fund your life.
Anyways, you are the only one who can answer what your life goals are and what you need to do to do them so be honest with yourself when your thinking about it
My advice would be to figure out what you want out of life: wife, kids, where would you live, what would you do, etc. And I don't mean look fir a new job I mean what do you want to dedicate your life to. Maybe religion, maybe service work, maybe cocaine and hookers. It's up to you.
Then, figure out a plan on what you need to do to achieve it.
You seem to believe that the point of working is the work itself, but the reality is that the point of working is to get money so you can fund your life.
Anyways, you are the only one who can answer what your life goals are and what you need to do to do them so be honest with yourself when your thinking about it