>I experience PTSD like symptoms from the constant barrage of negative thoughts the difficulty and stress of doing these problems are causing me.
I am not sure if we have had similar thoughts and feelings. The idea that I am simply not good enough to be a programmer, after trying so hard. And I cant solve these problem quickly enough to be a programmer. I can definitely program, given enough amount of time, but being a professional programmer seems like a different thing. And there seems to be a immense amount of knowledge that I have absolutely no idea, there is more unknown then in the known. How am I suppose to do this day in day out? And it causes anxiety issues? is that similar to how you are felling?
I am not sure if we have had similar thoughts and feelings. The idea that I am simply not good enough to be a programmer, after trying so hard. And I cant solve these problem quickly enough to be a programmer. I can definitely program, given enough amount of time, but being a professional programmer seems like a different thing. And there seems to be a immense amount of knowledge that I have absolutely no idea, there is more unknown then in the known. How am I suppose to do this day in day out? And it causes anxiety issues? is that similar to how you are felling?