You don't have a job yet, so you don't actually know what being a programmer is like. You're stressing out about what you think being a programmer is like, and worse, you're stressing out about what you think how a programmer is hired.
Sit back, relax, go talk to someone who actually does the job, and re-evaluate once you're better contextualized.
Sit back, relax, go talk to someone who actually does the job, and re-evaluate once you're better contextualized.