Comment by gromy

Yikes! Here are some books I’d recommend for you:

https://www.amazon.com/Happiness-Advantage-Positive-Brain-Su...

https://www.amazon.com/Daring-Greatly-Courage-Vulnerable-Tra...

https://www.amazon.com/Courage-Be-Disliked-Phenomenon-Happin...

https://www.amazon.com/One-Thing-Surprisingly-Extraordinary-...