I almost certainly do have depression then. Not the kind where I am suicidal, or lack the ability to get out of bed... but rather, the kind where I would rather not exist because I do not enjoy life.
I struggle very much with meaning, obviously. That's part of this existential crisis... Nothing is meaningful. We are all going to die and I ask what will it mean then? What will some service or app that I made mean when I am dead?
Has anyone yet lived for some purpose, some greater meaning? It appears not, and I am not special.
I almost certainly do have depression then. Not the kind where I am suicidal, or lack the ability to get out of bed... but rather, the kind where I would rather not exist because I do not enjoy life.
I struggle very much with meaning, obviously. That's part of this existential crisis... Nothing is meaningful. We are all going to die and I ask what will it mean then? What will some service or app that I made mean when I am dead?
Has anyone yet lived for some purpose, some greater meaning? It appears not, and I am not special.