1.) Moneyball made it look like the scouts ruined Billy Beane's life, but the reality is much more nuanced. His playing career didn't go well and when he was in AA, he started seriously doubting himself. But, when his career ended, he started off as an Oakland A's scout. 25 years later, after a great run as General Manager, he was named the A's Executive Vice President. The point of all this is that in retrospect, the scouts who projected him to become a superstar weren't entirely wrong - he has an excellent mind for baseball, but he couldn't make the physical/mental adjustments required to succeed against tough opponents. I'd suspect that your issue may be similar - you clearly have an excellent mind for code, but perhaps you need to make a few adjustments. I think it's also important to note that as Beane's confidence wavered, it got harder for him to make the adjustments that he needed.
2.) How are you doing? When I read this over, I was actually rather worried about you. You sound like you're taking on a lot of life right now and money woes don't help. Are you okay?
The bottom line is that you sound very intelligent. I believe in you and in your ability to figure this out. Good luck and be safe!
1.) Moneyball made it look like the scouts ruined Billy Beane's life, but the reality is much more nuanced. His playing career didn't go well and when he was in AA, he started seriously doubting himself. But, when his career ended, he started off as an Oakland A's scout. 25 years later, after a great run as General Manager, he was named the A's Executive Vice President. The point of all this is that in retrospect, the scouts who projected him to become a superstar weren't entirely wrong - he has an excellent mind for baseball, but he couldn't make the physical/mental adjustments required to succeed against tough opponents. I'd suspect that your issue may be similar - you clearly have an excellent mind for code, but perhaps you need to make a few adjustments. I think it's also important to note that as Beane's confidence wavered, it got harder for him to make the adjustments that he needed.
2.) How are you doing? When I read this over, I was actually rather worried about you. You sound like you're taking on a lot of life right now and money woes don't help. Are you okay?
The bottom line is that you sound very intelligent. I believe in you and in your ability to figure this out. Good luck and be safe!