I'd say your Rich White Guy problems are getting the best of you. For every successful person here, there are a thousand* of us who are obsessively checking reddit, facebook, reader, and email. You need to take control of your thoughts. Your brain has finite resources. If you use it to mostly think about all your failure and all the bad stuff, there won't be anything left to do anything good.
1) do something that makes you break a sweat EVERY DAY.
2) Go do something and take some pictures, then write about it. Even if it is just a short walk down a plain street. Find something about it that's interesting and think/write/capture it. This solves 2 problems. Now you're producing something and you're paying attention to what's going on outside your head.
3) Take a look at everything you accomplish in a day. You're less of a loser than you realize.
* - making up numbers as I go.
1) do something that makes you break a sweat EVERY DAY.
2) Go do something and take some pictures, then write about it. Even if it is just a short walk down a plain street. Find something about it that's interesting and think/write/capture it. This solves 2 problems. Now you're producing something and you're paying attention to what's going on outside your head.
3) Take a look at everything you accomplish in a day. You're less of a loser than you realize. * - making up numbers as I go.