I can't specifically speak to this, but I would like to chime in with one thing:
A lot of your post reminds me of the common traits of Imposter Syndrome [1]. Even if you are actually below the norm, you may be exaggerating the gap through Imposter Syndrome.
A lot of your post reminds me of the common traits of Imposter Syndrome [1]. Even if you are actually below the norm, you may be exaggerating the gap through Imposter Syndrome.
[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impostor_syndrome