I work for one of the top tech company in Seattle/Redmond area. I have nearly ten years of software dev. experience. I am getting $130k as base and 20k in stock each year.
I am not an engineer, though. I lead a remote team located outside of US. My workload is really awful. I usually work 55 hrs to 60 hrs per week. Additionally, my commute takes 90 min. on daily basis. I still have very good knowledge of technologies and I do coding in my leisure time.
Every day I wake up with feeling bad about myself. I took this job because of some personal reasons. I have no personal life, no hobbies, no interests. I can't remember when I laughed last time. It's work -->home-->gym-->work-->sleep--> repeat cycle for me.
I want to move into the management. I have discussed this issue and work hours multiple times with my manager, who just makes excuses every time we discuss and shows false hope.I am young and very enthusiastic about technology and making difference to lives of millions of people. I equally like making money as well.
What shall I do? I don't have a mentor or good friend to discuss these issues. Should I continue the job and see how it pans out or should I start looking for another tech company?
I don't know if I am overreacting?
In my opinion worst thing is that, I can not stop thinking about the work. My autopilot on brain keeps thinking about the work, even though I don't want to. I tried observing my thoughts but that does not work for me.
Could anyone with enough experience under the belt please advise?
I am not an engineer, though. I lead a remote team located outside of US. My workload is really awful. I usually work 55 hrs to 60 hrs per week. Additionally, my commute takes 90 min. on daily basis. I still have very good knowledge of technologies and I do coding in my leisure time.
Every day I wake up with feeling bad about myself. I took this job because of some personal reasons. I have no personal life, no hobbies, no interests. I can't remember when I laughed last time. It's work -->home-->gym-->work-->sleep--> repeat cycle for me.
I want to move into the management. I have discussed this issue and work hours multiple times with my manager, who just makes excuses every time we discuss and shows false hope.I am young and very enthusiastic about technology and making difference to lives of millions of people. I equally like making money as well.
What shall I do? I don't have a mentor or good friend to discuss these issues. Should I continue the job and see how it pans out or should I start looking for another tech company? I don't know if I am overreacting?
In my opinion worst thing is that, I can not stop thinking about the work. My autopilot on brain keeps thinking about the work, even though I don't want to. I tried observing my thoughts but that does not work for me.
Could anyone with enough experience under the belt please advise?