Hi Hackernews,
i am seeking for life advice.
Right now, i don't know what i should do with my life. I feel trapped. Forgotten. Not part of society. And the part that worries me the most : i have become suicidal.
Context :
I am almost 30 years old.
I studied Bioinformatics, still doing my masters. That is one of the main reasons i never worked. It took me 10 years to study and i feel my life doesn't progress, while others buying cars or getting married. Even though i only have to attend 3 more exams, with my current depression, it feels sooo hard to even pass one of them.
The reason it took me so long was, that i had to work next to my studies.
I am broke as hell, in fact, i have a debts of 20000€.
I am based in germany.
I applied for 20 jobs so far. Already got 4 rejections.
I feel unwanted and even though germany has a social security net .. i imagined my life not to be so bad.
I feel like, i can never "start a life", because i studied so long and no one wants a quitter .. at least in germany.
I don't know what to do. I am in a unhappy place and i can't get out :(
i am seeking for life advice. Right now, i don't know what i should do with my life. I feel trapped. Forgotten. Not part of society. And the part that worries me the most : i have become suicidal.
Context :
I am almost 30 years old. I studied Bioinformatics, still doing my masters. That is one of the main reasons i never worked. It took me 10 years to study and i feel my life doesn't progress, while others buying cars or getting married. Even though i only have to attend 3 more exams, with my current depression, it feels sooo hard to even pass one of them. The reason it took me so long was, that i had to work next to my studies. I am broke as hell, in fact, i have a debts of 20000€. I am based in germany. I applied for 20 jobs so far. Already got 4 rejections.
I feel unwanted and even though germany has a social security net .. i imagined my life not to be so bad.
I feel like, i can never "start a life", because i studied so long and no one wants a quitter .. at least in germany. I don't know what to do. I am in a unhappy place and i can't get out :(