Please do what's best for yourself and your health. One possibility is to take a disability leave for depression, or talking to a mental health professional may help you fight the negative thoughts. Speaking from experience, talking to my therapist helps to ground me and prevent my thoughts from spiraling out of control.
You deserve happiness and to be around those that appreciate you. Don't give up the fight.
You deserve happiness and to be around those that appreciate you. Don't give up the fight.