this is a pretty dark post but I'm pretty much burnt out. Not one of those 'take a break' and come back but I just don't think I can deal with working in tech anymore. I started out as a software dev for a couple of years, moved on to selling my own software and just too tired to go on. Like I don't think I can compete or have the willpower.
I tried to think of new software ideas to work on but I really can't muster any energy to do it. I know there's ton of exciting new tech stuff going on but after 16 years I think I've had enough.
It's been a really interesting 6 years working on my own thing. But it was far too isolating. Too much mental health issue causing. And it's a zero sum game I'm realizing, one that is won by whoever can raise the most amount of money in the shortest time period.
I don't know maybe my head was too high in the clouds. But I'm turning 30, and I think it's time I quit and look for other things. I don't know anything else besides making software, and I feel so old to be trying something completely new. If I keep going I think it's going to drive me nuts. Even reading HN and Techcrunch these days I'm not even feeling excited or let alone interested.
I haven't had any success and all I've done was get taken advantaged of by crappy customers, worked for free for years, and yeah.
I know I'm not owed or entitled to anything. It was my decision after all to work on something alone for such a long time. And it was all for shit.
I even got a hold of investors but I just think it's too late. I should've taken money 6 years earlier, not now. I'm burnt out and can't do anything in front of the computer anymore. Like I just want to get away from computers permanently almost. I try to imagine what life was like before internet and computers and I don't fucking know and it scares me.
tl;dr: want to quit making software & tech but don't know where to turn.
I tried to think of new software ideas to work on but I really can't muster any energy to do it. I know there's ton of exciting new tech stuff going on but after 16 years I think I've had enough.
It's been a really interesting 6 years working on my own thing. But it was far too isolating. Too much mental health issue causing. And it's a zero sum game I'm realizing, one that is won by whoever can raise the most amount of money in the shortest time period.
I don't know maybe my head was too high in the clouds. But I'm turning 30, and I think it's time I quit and look for other things. I don't know anything else besides making software, and I feel so old to be trying something completely new. If I keep going I think it's going to drive me nuts. Even reading HN and Techcrunch these days I'm not even feeling excited or let alone interested.
I haven't had any success and all I've done was get taken advantaged of by crappy customers, worked for free for years, and yeah.
I know I'm not owed or entitled to anything. It was my decision after all to work on something alone for such a long time. And it was all for shit.
I even got a hold of investors but I just think it's too late. I should've taken money 6 years earlier, not now. I'm burnt out and can't do anything in front of the computer anymore. Like I just want to get away from computers permanently almost. I try to imagine what life was like before internet and computers and I don't fucking know and it scares me.
tl;dr: want to quit making software & tech but don't know where to turn.