Welcome to life.
Don't worry though. Everything will be OK.
(The things I'm about to say is/are true for me. So is most of what everyone else here is saying. While it's good that you are asking your peers for help, the answers you will get won't make "sense" until you discover them for yourself. (Like the A-HA moment when you finally grok a mathematics proof or a famous algorithm). This will require effort from you.)
The facts of the matter are simply this:
- Your life is unique the same way that everyone else's is.
- Your journey is not the same as anybody else's.
- You are a whole person.
- You have all the tools you need.
- :)
The answers you seek are of a spiritual nature and you need some kind of spiritual process to discover them. I can recommend Buddhism, Toaism or even the Yogic disciplines/technologies. What they all have in common is an insistence that one needs to meditate, daily...
(Meditation, loosely, is learning how to accept and acknowledge thoughts that are uncomfortable.)
Good luck!
Don't worry though. Everything will be OK.
(The things I'm about to say is/are true for me. So is most of what everyone else here is saying. While it's good that you are asking your peers for help, the answers you will get won't make "sense" until you discover them for yourself. (Like the A-HA moment when you finally grok a mathematics proof or a famous algorithm). This will require effort from you.)
The facts of the matter are simply this:
- Your life is unique the same way that everyone else's is. - Your journey is not the same as anybody else's. - You are a whole person. - You have all the tools you need. - :)
The answers you seek are of a spiritual nature and you need some kind of spiritual process to discover them. I can recommend Buddhism, Toaism or even the Yogic disciplines/technologies. What they all have in common is an insistence that one needs to meditate, daily...
(Meditation, loosely, is learning how to accept and acknowledge thoughts that are uncomfortable.)
Good luck!